Its been a while

Hey, those of you who don't ever read this...

I just want to update you on my life. it will be brief, I promise.

I AM GRADUATING IN LESS THEN FOUR MONTHS!!!!!! forever done with this little thing called high school. thats it, folks, thats my life.

Since I last typed, I did finals at school, went to Mexico, changed classes at semester break, aaaand well thats about it. Actually, just now i checked my grades on this handy-dandy little grade checker thing online aaand i found out that those tell-tale numbers are sliiiipping down the hill into the abyss of bad grades. so now I'm motivated.

I was just chuckling to myself at how unmotivated I am though. because here I am, a few months away from being the big 1-8 and I still don't have my drivers license. sad, I know. But there just hasn't been any motivation for me to reach out and take it. yes, i've been driving under permit for oh...well the date is embarrassing. And its gotten to the point where i have people (in addition to my family) asking me multiple times a week when i'm gonna get the thing. People I babysit for, people at school...I mean, what other 18 yr old person does NOT HAVE THEIR LICENSE!?!? It gets a bit depressing. BUT! I have an announcement to make. Ladies and Gentlemen of the unknown cyberspace...who probably don't read this anyways...
I have an appointment with the California DMV next Thursday. *people applause* *i bow* "Thank you, Thank you...far too kind"

But really, I look at my lack of motivation and wonder...no...know that I have done this with God. I feel no motivation, I just don't get around to it...and pretty soon, time has slipped away to who knows where and people can see the difference. Even when there doesn't seem to be a motivation to talk to God...there is a need. and that is what keeps us going.
For me, I can get to a place where I just am not feeling right enough to talk to God...or my heart is not ready for it. So what I do to help myself is, when I am feeling close to God, or when I have this prayer on my heart, I write it down in a book, on a notecard, and carry it with me or put it in my Bible. So when those times come when i know I need God but have no motivation to run after Him, I pull out the prayer, say the words of Truth even if I may not feel them...and God does a number on my heart and soon I'm back in tune.

"When your spirit gets too weak, when the water seems too deep, when you think there's just no way, I'll be there for you night and day.

When the mountains seem too steep, when the valleys seem too deep...when you think there's just no way, I'll be there for you night and day..."