And the world keeps spinning round

The title of this grand post is not reflective of me, my head, or whatever. It really just sounded kinda cool. My life, in fact, is far from spinning. here it is not too exciting right now. I still have a good three weeks until school starts and I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. Aside from the obvious task of getting a job, I'm spending lots of time online...(hence the blog.) and I babysat. and I eat. a lot.

But...nevertheless (is that really all one word?) I was still able to pull some spiritual stimulation out of this slow time in my life. In church on Wed. night, we read in Psalm 2. It is such a powerful chapter. The beginning of it is a question of how the nations and kingdoms of the earth plan these attacks against God and his annointed one. As these mighty men are organizing, do you know what the Lord does? He laughs. Thats right. He scoffs at them. Because He knows all. He knows what is going to come. But then, His response deepens and our Great God becomes angry. He has provided all of this for His creation, and they are using it against Him. He is disappointed, frustrated, angry and sad.
The chapter continues saying all of the terrible things the Lord will do to them that turn away. But our God is faithful. At the end of the chapter is a typical God thing... it is a promise.
"...But what joy for all who take refuge in him!" God does not leave us hanging. He will provide.
How great is our God...

Lyrics by Rich Mullins:

While the Nations Rage

Why do the nations rage? Why do they plot and scheme?

Their bullets can't stop the prayers we pray In the name of the Prince of Peace

We walk in faith and remember long ago

How they killed Him and then how on the third day He arose

Well, things may look bad And things may look grim

But all these things must pass except the things that are of Him

Where are the nails that pierced His hands?

Well the nails have turned to rust But behold the Man He is risen

And He reigns In the hearts of the children Rising up in His name

Where are the thorns that drew His blood?

Well, the thorns have turned to dust But not so the love He has given

No, it remains In the hearts of the children Who will love while the nations rage

The Lord in Heaven laughs He knows what is to come

While all the chiefs of state plan their big attacks Against His anointed One

The Church of God she will not bend her knees

To the gods of this world though they promise her peace

She stands her ground Stands firm on the Rock

Watch their walls tumble down when she lives out His love

Job

This post is about..... a job. My lack of one. My need for one. My search for one. When I began to drive, my father said to me, Suzy, you may use our family van. I said, Thank you.
My mother said, Suzy, when will you start paying for gas? I said, when I get a job. She agreed. After my long summer away and that school business lingering in the future, a job is a pressing matter. After finding out that my back-up job at Interior Services was not available, I began a search....and pray. Hoping God will open up doors for a good school job.
Options:
*American Eagle--
*Cheesecake Factory--
*PacSun
*Val Surf
*Mimis Cafe

So the basic theme is, clothes and food. my life in a nutshell. just kidding... Oh! so, follow me here. I was thinking "my life isn't food and clothes, its Jesus! OH! I'd work for a Jesus store! OH! Lighthouse Christian Bookstore!" So I'm going to check it out, just a sec.

*Time Passes*

They obviously don't believe in online applications...or information. I will have to go visit them in person.
Ahh, I feel inspired. Anyways, back to story. I chose to apply for Mimis Cafe. They want experience, which I don't have. At least not in professional food serving. Done enough of that at my own home. And the people skills are no problem.
We shall see in the coming week (s) if this shall pan out. I hope so. I need money. This is not a selfish need of money. This is a suzy-is-almost-completely-broke need for money. It is real. And painful.
I will keep you posted (no pun intended) in the future for those who read this to update you on my search for responsibility.

theres MORE?!

So I just realized that my last post says Wed. the 15 and that this one is going to say the same date. Who decided midnight should be the next day anyways?? thats annoying.

Besides that. I am feeling so productive! Not only am I organizing my life for college, I have time to blog! Let me tell you a little something. I learned something important today. Basically it is a word picture.

Something in my life goes wrong. I am hurt, angry, misunderstood...whatever the negative situation prompts. I am enclosed in a small cylindar, mad thoughts rushing around me. I can't escape the intenseness of the negativity. I am surrounded by it, it is weighing me down. I can't forget about it no matter how hard I try.

CUT.

There is a sunset. It is beautiful and it takes up the entire horizon. Before me is a vast ocean which is limitless. All of it represents God. He is big in my life, stretched out before me, so glorious that I cannot help but gape at the awesome power and majesty of it. As someone comes up beside me and pulls my gaze away, frustrating me and making me angry, I can take those thoughts as they rise up, one by one, and lay them down. I place them in the ocean, not so they can float away into oblivion, but rather that God can take them and I can fully trust Him. There is so much space. No matter how many thousands of thoughts and emotions I have, I can just keep laying them down, spreading them out. There is no pressure. No desperate feeling of being trapped with my anger and hurt.

Choose the sunset. That is where I begin when I feel stuck.

God is good all the time.
All the time God is good.

WHAT?

Its an almost-daily post! Like, about 24 hours ago I posted! This is a novelty. I'm not sure if I, or the cyber world can handle it. But, if the resources are available (aka time and a blogspot) then, by all means, I'll post!

As I am putting my life slowly in order, I am looking forward to the newest big step ahead. Now, in this case, the phrase "looking forward" doesn't necessarily mean "anticipating" or "waiting with baited breath" or "overly exuberant and excited." Au contrare. (sp?) It means it is a ginormous looming beast waiting to suck away four years of my life devoted to a subject which could possibly define my future.

oh. that sounds so pessimistic. Allow me to rephrase.

College is coming. Ready or not, here we go.

Keep praying, though...it is just another big change among many.

Well, it looks to be a short post. Esta bien??

Buenos Noches Muchachos

How awesome is the LORD Most High, the great King over all the earth! Psalm 47:2

Ain't it good to be back home again...

How, you ask, did an entire summer go by and I only posted once! Tis sad, I know. But I had other things taking up my precious time. Like endless games of ultimate frisbee. Like doing enough corn to make me almost go crazy. Like socializing more than I normally do with large amounts of ACs. But I do have to say, I'm not going to regret it. Although my body was sore from the exertion, I am now almost a truly domesticated farm-girl, and I am sure I know the social ins and outs of being a midwest AC, I came away fuller, well rounded, and ready to take on a new chapter in my life.

I actually just returned home a short five hours ago. And I have to say that even though I will miss my life in the country, I will always and forever, even if it is obscured deep down, be a city girl. This morning in the hotel room, I sort of panicked at this random thought that I wouldn't make it home. It was a tragic thought and so I simply lifted my love for California up to God and told him that if it was in His will, that I would like to have my bare feet touch western soil once more before my pilgrim journey is ended.

And it was. His will, that is. I stepped out of the plane LAX, only to have balmy (humidity-less) 76 degree weather greet my face, cars galore, variety in scenery, palm trees and a true sunset on a true beach. (not one of those Lake Michigan beaches, either.)

Thank you to all who helped make my trip memorable. I have learned so much. God is good.
Now, life will go on, but the memories and good times shared over 4+ weeks away from home will forever be locked in the depths of my heart.